Whether it was to test our relationship, or just that it hurt too much to keep holding on, I knew I just had to do it. With you as my first, I didn’t quite know how to act, I didnt know what to do and I relied on instinct. But trust me when I say I didn’t let go without struggle you know. Some people say that letting go is the easiest option, and now I see that they are right, if I held on, if I talked things out first, maybe our relationship could have been saved even though you didn’t know it was falling apart. If you really knew me, you would have been able to see the pain that was being inflicted within me, but you were calm and accepted. I dont even know if I’m making sense anymore. In english what I really mean is; I love you and I didn’t mean to hurt you, but don’t think it didn’t hurt me either.
